I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing. 

Lately, my life seems to be going in so many directions all at once. Why am I doing this? Why am I pursuing that? Should I be doing this anymore? Why did I even start? And why the hell am I going to Morocco? 

Okay, I know the answer to that last question, but where will it lead me? All these random blots in my life right now, how will they connect? Will they? 

But maybe.. just maybe.. 

..I should just stop worrying. Stop being frantic, stop stressing, stop questioning, stop going around in endless circles in my mind.

Maybe I should just live in and feel the moments. Stop running so fast, and just calmly feel everything. The questions, the doubts, the confusion.. everything. Stop panicking, stop desperately looking for the answers, stop trying to find or discover or have the end-goal reveal itself. 

Maybe there doesn’t have to be one. Maybe I’m putting all my focus and attention on the search, rather than simply enjoying the journey. Maybe my life right now, which seems like a mess, is just fine. Maybe I’m actually doing okay.

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."

- Rainer Maria Rilke

“Note to self: every time you were convinced you couldn’t go on, you did.”
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French photographer Jonathan Moyal's breathtaking photos of his travels into the wilderness awaken a strong sense of wanderlust. Moyal has recently embarked on a road trip through Canada—keep up with his journey through Tumblr or Flickr.

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"Mom! Earth threw a satellite at me!!" said all the other planets.

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“The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts.”
— Aurelius, Marcus. Meditations (via unmaiden)

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In six weeks, I will be flying to Morocco. I will be living in a different, completely new and foreign country for three months, potentially with a Moroccan family, with people I’ve yet to meet. I will be surrounded by and immersed in a new culture, a new way of life, new situations and experiences, new people, and languages that I hardly understand. In six weeks and for three months, that will be my life.

I am so excited, so thrilled, and quite scared. Scared not because I am afraid of what is to come, but because I don’t know what to expect. Because it is all a mystery. I won’t have my family there with me, and I can’t walk down the street to my friend’s house or call them to meet up for a much-needed heart-and-soul conversation. Sure, there’s always the internet. I can Facebook, Skype, or email my family and friends, but it’s not the same. 

But, I am so grateful that I can keep in touch with those who I love.

And I am so excited for what is to come. Deep breath, and remember what an adventure this is. I am so lucky and blessed and grateful for this opportunity. Life is so unpredictable, and you find yourself at points that you never would have thought you’d arrive at. 

So strange. But you know that life always goes on. 

“The path isn’t a straight line; it’s a spiral. You continually come back to things you thought you understood and see deeper truths.”
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