I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing.
Lately, my life seems to be going in so many directions all at once. Why am I doing this? Why am I pursuing that? Should I be doing this anymore? Why did I even start? And why the hell am I going to Morocco?
Okay, I know the answer to that last question, but where will it lead me? All these random blots in my life right now, how will they connect? Will they?
But maybe.. just maybe..
..I should just stop worrying. Stop being frantic, stop stressing, stop questioning, stop going around in endless circles in my mind.
Maybe I should just live in and feel the moments. Stop running so fast, and just calmly feel everything. The questions, the doubts, the confusion.. everything. Stop panicking, stop desperately looking for the answers, stop trying to find or discover or have the end-goal reveal itself.
Maybe there doesn’t have to be one. Maybe I’m putting all my focus and attention on the search, rather than simply enjoying the journey. Maybe my life right now, which seems like a mess, is just fine. Maybe I’m actually doing okay.
"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer."
- Rainer Maria Rilke